He will be with me
Posted on: Sunday, July 12, 2009
Posted at: 6:18 PM
Posted by: Yi Ren...
Have you ever been through a period of wilderness in your life?
Wilderness can mean times when you feel that you do not have God. This can also means that during times when you're facing parental objection.
Wilderness are not necessary be created by satan. It can be a period of testing by the Holy Spirit, where God test your faith in Him.
Parental objection is a common type of wilderness in some people's lives. When we experience parental objection, we may feel that God is not with us. We may even hate God for why didn't God do something to redeem us from sadness, et cetera.
As a person who had went through parental objection, i do understand how people feel. Look around you, there are also leaders like ailin, tayxi et cetera who had experienced parental objection. In another words, we know how one another feels.
I remembered my parents like insult Christ, saying stuffs like "Jesus sucks" all these. What kind of nasty things about Jesus you can think of, they had said it right infront of me. Till one day, I couldnt bear it, and i shouted "you have no right to say that!" repeatedly.
Of course, we're not supposed to do that, and I am not teaching you to do that, but I am a human.
I guess you had already know what is going to happen next - i was slapped, caned, whacked, and you know all sort of ridiculous things - basically how a meanie treat a poor dog. I remembered how i screamed and cry, thinking about God all the time, why didn't He do something to free me.
I was left in scars after they left the room, with uncontrollable tears rolling down my cheeks. I asked God about so many things, why didn't He do something et cetera.
And I got an answer. He wanted me to grow.
I remembered lying to my parents just to go to church. I couldnt help but to lie, because I desire God so much, desire His presense, His words. Of course that's not correct, and I am not teaching you to lie. But, I am a human, and humans are not perfect.
I am never happy when I lie to my parents. God didn't teach me to lie. But, I am sure that God will do something for me.
It was a very tough walk. People would insult you and Christ, criticising about what fake gods you have, saying all those nasty things.
But remember, God want us to press on.
Remember the verses Luke 20:17-19
If we stand firm, we will win! Not just eternal life, but also spiritual maturity. If we pass all these trials, we will have more faith in God, and we will grow!
One day, God will redeem you from all these wilderness, all these parental objection, like how He had redeemed me. Slowly but surely!
Parental objection is like a disease, a cancer, maybe brain tumor. (CHOY! LOL)
You can die anyday due to your tumor, therefore you need to rely on God double the times the usual people rely for the tumor to be gone. You need to have double, triple, or even 100000000000000000000x faith in God than the other people!
Why? Because you want to be cleansed from this tumor; you do not want to die so early!
This is the same! Parental Objection is like this brain tumor. We have to rely on God so much that, we will be cleansed from this Parental objection! We wouldn't want to "die" during this parental objection!
(die means to backslide)
We want to live in Christ!
Remember, God will never lead you to a period of wilderness where you cant endure. God know that you CAN endure, so that He will lead you into this wilderness.
In your wilderness, there is no light. But use Christ as the light, to bring you across this darkness. Do not make a light on your own, but rely on Christ to make a light out of Christ, a light which will never burn out!
Rely on God!
Trust Him!!!
PS: I do hope that this entry will encourage those people who are in period of wilderness, such as parental objections and family problems stuffs like that, encourage them to rely on God. :) Love Him and you too :)